Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Update that doesn't make me happy...
So hes kinda in "yeah" with her probably having passionate "ughh" with her and I'm stuck here dying. :/ Even though sunday....was probably the best sunday ever for me since...yeah....
Monday, June 14, 2010
Makes Me Happy
Each day for the rest of the summer I will add on to this one post. It is called, Makes Me Happy. This is my way of fighting depression. I want you to see the things that make me happy each and every day.
June 14, 2010
The rain hitting my face right before the actual storm hits.
June 15
My 85 year old grandmother, who's strength has helped her to survive through life's toughest obstacles.
June 16
His love for me. Even though its wrong and causes most of my heartache, today, his love for me made me happy.
June 17
The caring and understanding of my best friend, Elyssa, made me happy.
June 18
Being in a peaceful environment and watching the stars out the window as I was falling asleep.
June 19
Seeing him today made me happy. And seeing the words which I've been saying for the past month and a half being said. Today just made me happy all around. :)
June 20
Being able to sing while he played guitar in a church that I was not accustomed to, made me happy.
June 21
My friend telling me that I was the only one of his friends he truly trusts and cares about made me happy.
June 22
Today....Today a trio of triplets made me happy.
June 23
Spending time with my grandmother made me happy
June 24-27
Talking to him even though he was so far away, made me happy.
June 28
Finding my old Journal and seeing how much I have grown up, made me happy.
June 29
Playing doctor with Tessa and remembering the happiness of adolescence, made me happy.
June 30
Some completely random guy telling me that I was very pretty, made me happy.
July 1
Spending time with my mom and sister in Florence, made me happy.
July 2
Going to watch fireworks with Michelle on her birthday, made me happy.
July 3
Sitting in my room hearing the sounds I can make on my guitar, made me happy.
July 4
My best friend Lyssa calling and waking me up and then making me spend the WHOLE day with her, made me extremely happy. Best forth of July ever.
July 5
Talking to Keith on the phone while at the lake made my day completely better.
July 6-9
Spending time with my grandmother and helping her in her garden made me happy.
July 10
Although nothing really made me happy today, my friend Hadley telling me that through everything, she would always be here for me, THAT made me happy.
July 11
Rekindling a friendship that the majority of the summer ruined made me happy.
July 12
Hadley leaving a wall post about her likes, dislikes, and confessions make me super happy to have such an amazing friend like her.
July 13
Getting my Paramore tickets in the mail made me happy. Lol.
July 14
Finding acceptance made me happy.
July 15
My friend helping me through a depression bolt made me happy.
July 16
Learning from my mistakes made me happy
July 17
Making friends with the enemy made me happy. Lol. And meeting a guy who made me happier than I have been, made me really happy.
July 18
Being able to see him at church and not breaking down made me happy.
July 19
Spending time with my other grandmother with alzheimers and her telling me things that she could remember still, made me happy.
July 20
Air conditioner made me happy xD
July 21
Talking to Trey made me happy :)
July 22
A full nights sleep made me happy.
July 23
Seeing Tegan and Sara as well as Paramore Live in concert made me extremely happy.
July 24
Trey telling me that he loved me made me happy...but also sad in a way.
July 25 & 26
Sitting at home all day two days made me happy.
July 27
Practicing with Jon today made me happy.
(ummm...I kind of forgot these days >.<)
August 12
Knowing that I have already put in an application into my number one on my list of colleges makes me super duper happy :D
June 14, 2010
The rain hitting my face right before the actual storm hits.
June 15
My 85 year old grandmother, who's strength has helped her to survive through life's toughest obstacles.
June 16
His love for me. Even though its wrong and causes most of my heartache, today, his love for me made me happy.
June 17
The caring and understanding of my best friend, Elyssa, made me happy.
June 18
Being in a peaceful environment and watching the stars out the window as I was falling asleep.
June 19
Seeing him today made me happy. And seeing the words which I've been saying for the past month and a half being said. Today just made me happy all around. :)
June 20
Being able to sing while he played guitar in a church that I was not accustomed to, made me happy.
June 21
My friend telling me that I was the only one of his friends he truly trusts and cares about made me happy.
June 22
Today....Today a trio of triplets made me happy.
June 23
Spending time with my grandmother made me happy
June 24-27
Talking to him even though he was so far away, made me happy.
June 28
Finding my old Journal and seeing how much I have grown up, made me happy.
June 29
Playing doctor with Tessa and remembering the happiness of adolescence, made me happy.
June 30
Some completely random guy telling me that I was very pretty, made me happy.
July 1
Spending time with my mom and sister in Florence, made me happy.
July 2
Going to watch fireworks with Michelle on her birthday, made me happy.
July 3
Sitting in my room hearing the sounds I can make on my guitar, made me happy.
July 4
My best friend Lyssa calling and waking me up and then making me spend the WHOLE day with her, made me extremely happy. Best forth of July ever.
July 5
Talking to Keith on the phone while at the lake made my day completely better.
July 6-9
Spending time with my grandmother and helping her in her garden made me happy.
July 10
Although nothing really made me happy today, my friend Hadley telling me that through everything, she would always be here for me, THAT made me happy.
July 11
Rekindling a friendship that the majority of the summer ruined made me happy.
July 12
Hadley leaving a wall post about her likes, dislikes, and confessions make me super happy to have such an amazing friend like her.
July 13
Getting my Paramore tickets in the mail made me happy. Lol.
July 14
Finding acceptance made me happy.
July 15
My friend helping me through a depression bolt made me happy.
July 16
Learning from my mistakes made me happy
July 17
Making friends with the enemy made me happy. Lol. And meeting a guy who made me happier than I have been, made me really happy.
July 18
Being able to see him at church and not breaking down made me happy.
July 19
Spending time with my other grandmother with alzheimers and her telling me things that she could remember still, made me happy.
July 20
Air conditioner made me happy xD
July 21
Talking to Trey made me happy :)
July 22
A full nights sleep made me happy.
July 23
Seeing Tegan and Sara as well as Paramore Live in concert made me extremely happy.
July 24
Trey telling me that he loved me made me happy...but also sad in a way.
July 25 & 26
Sitting at home all day two days made me happy.
July 27
Practicing with Jon today made me happy.
(ummm...I kind of forgot these days >.<)
August 12
Knowing that I have already put in an application into my number one on my list of colleges makes me super duper happy :D
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Summer...
So I haven't posted anything on here in a while. This summer started out really bad. But slowly and gradually it has made its way to being almost acceptable. I'm excited about the mission trip at the end of this month as well as the Paramore concert in July. I miss being at school with my friends. It sucks sitting at home all day with no one to talk to or even if I can talk to them I can't go hang out with them because they are on freaking vacation. :/ I wish my family would go on vacation.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Best friend?
Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend...How many times do I need to tell myself this before I start feeling that way towards him instead of being in love with him? Ughhh. Maybe a hundred more times will work? Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend. Hes my best friend...No, maybe a thousand will work...Hes my best friend...Its not going to work. I give up. I can't stop loving him...Maybe pretending to be will help...
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