Todays realization...

Today I have realized that I am doing horribly in Spanish class and my best friend speaks Spanish fluently. -.- Well this is just great. Haha.


Btw, HAPPY EASTER!!! :D

(please click the bunny to view his awesomeness :) I did not make him btw)

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I want to write something today but I can't think of anything to say. :/ so Blah Blah Blahhh :)

adding on to yesterday...

So, I definitely do not hate her. I just have finally realized a LOT of stuff that I was blinded by. For the longest time I have always thought of what I had done wrong. What I could have possibly said to make things this way. Never looking at what could have been wrong that she had done. I never wanted to see that. I still don't. But knowing her she probably blames me or is trying to find other excuses to why it could be me. She always told me what was wrong with me. And each and every time I would try to fix it. I'd tell her that I wouldn't be that way and she would say yeah right. I was blinded by everything because I loved her. I loved her like my sister. She was someone I really cared for. And because I cared so much for her I truly hurt now. I'm stronger than I was but I'm not completely sane again. In a way, I understand now.

(suppose to be) outfit for dads concert...

This is what I was GOING to wear but didn't because the shirt didn't come in the mail on time :/

I have officially decided on what I am going to wear to my dads "Rock" concert.(He's in a band named Idlewilde South) After weeks of contemplating this I have officially Polyvore'd what I am wearing(thank god!) Hope you like! ((you gots to clicky on it!))


Find me on Polyvore

Everything is actually very cheap...well except that headband. But I've already made one similar to it so no problem there! :D

Saint Patrick's Day!!!

HAPPY SAINT PATRICK'S DAY EVERYONE!!!

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So I'm trying to be more of myself lately rather than let people control and comform me. I've cut my hair, pierced my ears, and I have fallen in what I believe is love. So far this year my so called "bestfriend" left me. for four long months she didn't barely even speak to me and she did this because she was moving. Why the heck would you leave your best friend if you were MOVING?! It really hurt me. I went into a sort of depression but slowly I have gotten out of it.This summer I'm going to visit Laura in Florida and i've found this awesome bathing suit! xD seeee? Okay so i'm signing off for a little bit and i'll blog some more within the days to come! :D

dreams

So I had this pretty awesome dream last night. It felt like I had jumped out of this amazing fantasy book. it had a hint of everything in it. Like the cards from Alice in Wonderland, The Giant from Ella Enchanted but he looked like the thing from the Goonies...so I shall tell the story as best as I can. So maybe, just maybe, later in my life I can write this story or someone will read this and write it for me.
lets begin.

It started with me and a friend of mine(Elyssa) in my parents bedroom. i can't remember what happened but the next thing that happened was the wall went flying off. we started running towards the woods and realized that after the woods was a sudden drop off that had never been there before. waiting on the impact of the fall it never occurred...we had been picked up by Hugo the giant. he was there capturing prisoners to take to the king of this land.
from this point its blurry. i remember going to to an area that looked like a football stadium and being transported to the press box to see this king. from here on i never see Elyssa again.
later on i remember i was found to be someone that the king needed. and for reasons i do not remember. i remember running through this town that was a mix between Disney world stores area and Broadway at the beach in Myrtle beach south Carolina. there was this huge wheel that could see what i saw and only that and was following me and trying to capture me. i tried to hide in the different stores but it kept finding me. then these people, who were witches, stopped me and handed me a bar of soap and told me to rub it over my heart.( i don't really understand what the effect of the soap is but whatever) this would allow me to create a house in my mind. after the house was finished i could then step inside the house and open my eyes and in life i would be there. the wheel would then not know where i was. but with being in the house i could tell where i was and where the wheel was. after the wheel had passed i stepped out and was in a great field. on the edge was a string. strangely enough it said "pull". curiously pulling the string Hugo appeared. i was afraid he would take me away again but he told me not to be afraid because he had left the king because of cruel treatment. the string was a call to any giant nearby for anyone who needed work. from there on i traveled with Hugo and to where i do not know because this is where the dream ended. which sucks.
this was a lot better dreamt so if it sucks to you I'm sorry. it was amazing in my head. haha.
enjoy!