Friends?

Why is it that I never see my best friends anymore? :(
Lyssa is constantly doing homework or studying or trying to find more ways to get the navy scholarship through ROTC. I only see her at church. I see Omar in math class and at lunch and youth when I go but we never hang out any more. I have a ton of friends but I hardly see Lyssa and Omar. I haven't seen Keith since the summer of 2009 and I can only hope that he comes back with Omar next summer... I talk to my friends all the time but my best friends on rare occassions. I hate this. My best friends know me, my friends only know what I tell them...

Colleges

Soooo Matt is kind of a stalker type xD oh well. Who needs a boyfriend anyway? I received a confirmation letter from Columbia College saying that they had received my application. I now need to apply to USC Aiken, Winthrop, Francis Marion, and USC Beaufort. Although I may end up going to Tech for two years :/

OCTOBER!! I'm getting slack with my blog

Its October 6th and I am happy to say that I no longer have feelings for Mr.Jerk! Lol. I met this guy named Matt. Hes so nice :D I'm so happy! School is going great! I turned in my application to Columbia College SC yesterday!

Oh how happy I am! :D

The first two weeks have been GREAT! I have more confidence this year and more of a I don't give a crap about what other people say about me attitude. I'm so tired of being pushed aside because I'm to nice and forgiving and I'm so shy and quiet. I hate that. I love being nice and forgiving but along with that comes the shy and quietness. I hate being shy. I ran for homecoming court Friday. I have a big chance of actually making it :) I really hope I did. Everyone could see a different side of me then. Sort of. I really hope that this school year only gets better. I'm no longer worrying about guys and having a boyfriend. They all suck in Cheraw anyway.

New School Year :)

So our Internet was struck by lightning about two weeks ago and I have not been able to post anything :( Luckily, its fixed now and I am able to finish college applications so my aunt won't jump down my throat again xD
Anyway, I have started my Senior year in high school! When we first received our schedules I found that I had NO electives and my dismissal started at 12:30. So I asked for another class and now I have Image Editing! :D I get to go home with my friend Hadley every day after school and that's a lot of fun considering that shes a reckless driver. My classes are 1p- Art1 Rayfield 2p- Spanish3 Palmera 3p- Prob&Stat Cannon 4p- Chemistry2 Allison 5p- English4 Pierce 6p- ImEd Morgan :) I really like my classes this year. Well, all except my Chemistry class. There are a bunch of ignorant immature people in there and I only have one friend :/ So that really sucks. I love my English class! Mrs. Pierce is sooo funny! I'm really glad that I have her instead of Mrs.Allan or whoever else is teaching English4. :)

Columbia College SC!

AHHHH!!!! I've already put in my application to hereee!!! I can't believe I already have my number one almost fully taken care of. Just need to get my reference letters in :D I REALLY want to get into this college. I'm going to visit Columbia College campus tomorrow! You have no idea how excited I am. Its almost scary at how obsessed I am with it. I love Columbia College. Just everything about it is everything I want in a college! Their mascot is the Koala ^.^ Its so cute! The fighting Koalas <3 I need to make a gooooooddddd SAT score to get the scholarship money that I need for it. If I'm not accepted I may flip out a little too much xD I'm also planning on applying to Erskine, Winthrop, Lander, and my aunt wants me to apply to USC although I really don't want to go there. I have Columbia College on my mind and I just cant seem to get rid of it :3

three words

So through the events this summer I didn't think that I would ever be okay again. Really. I mean I knew I would be happy again but I never really thought that I could truly be okay again. Then I met this guy and I really had no intentions of liking him. Then through days of talking to him and late night conversations, I've started to really fall for him. But today he told me he loved me... I broke down. I don't know whats wrong with me. Finally someone who wont use me and I run from him. I really like him. But I can't tell him I love him. I still love the guy I've spent my whole summer worrying about...I can't not. I hate myself right now. I just don't know whats wrong with me at all.